Life Coaching: When You’re Awake At Midnight

I am awake at midnight. I am not happy about it, either. I feel like my nights are spent either dozing on the couch at 9:00 pm, or making a Thanksgiving wreath at midnight. There’s no in between with me…

I suppose I am nervous. Nervous about the future and nervous about going to bed….which is an iffy proposition here at the Jackson household. I can either fall asleep quickly or toss and turn for hours. And since I slept like a hibernating bear last night, I’m anticipating a night of tossing and turning. Such is the life of a post menopausal woman…

I can easily find stuff to worry about without too much trouble. So instead of worrying some more, I’m gonna count my blessing…I was privileged to go to a swim party last night with a great group of ladies from our church. One of the precious ladies was gracious enough to open up her home to us, and we had a great time eating and splashing in the pool. Let me say right off the bat…I had not tried on my bathing suit since last year. I have gained 10 pounds, and I looked like a stuffed sausage in that bathing suit. But since I had squeezed myself into the thing, I was gonna swim or die trying. I almost did die trying because that swimsuit was so tight, it almost squeezed the life out of me. I am lucky to be alive…

At any rate, my daughter brought my grandson along with her, and I got to play in the pool with him. I’m not sure he enjoyed it as much as I did, but he didn’t cry and I call that a victory. I am grateful to still be here on this planet and be part of my grandchildren’s lives. It is a gift from God to be able to live so close to them. Truly. I thought about that last night while I was playing in the water with the Grandboy, and I wanted to cry from gratitude. I don’t deserve God’s gifts.

Well, today’s blog is an absolute ramble, and I don’t know how to stop that. So I guess I’ll just leave it with this…God is good. God gives us things we don’t even know we need. Sometimes (like tonight when I can’t sleep), I have time to contemplate on the awesomeness of the Lord God Almighty. I can contemplate His power. I can worship Him for who He is. It gives me a chance to really appreciate what He does.

I am going to close this out with this…I’m going to bed and I’m grateful…grateful for my family and grateful for each of you reading this. You are my tribe and you are my posse. Thank you. Goodnight and God bless!